Don’t go thinking I didn’t try.

Don't go thinking I didn't try.
I drove 80 miles an hour
to see you
in a darkness
where you check your lights
thinking, "I don't have my high beams on"
but you discover you do
And October snow
stuck on the road signs
and what I thought was 30 was 60
and at 80 miles an hour
I saw the deer in the road side ditches
And I think they looked at me wondering
"Who is she?"
And I imagined hitting one of these deer
and at such a speed
I would pass through it like an archers arrow
And stay the course.
the night, the road, it all curved
and I raced my Cavalier
and I stayed the course
Knowing you would be asleep.
I stayed the course away from home
in room #143 at the Austin Motel.
I stayed the course knowing I would be closer to you.
Knowing I would pass near you.
I didn't eat,
I pissed in a grocery bag
saving time
blazing past the deer
I wanted to be with you
I want to be with you
I want to be with you
You know that word?
"Be"
To be always
with you
and I motored on,
and time slowed as I passed you
and I began composing
how you are the red flashing lights in the distance
Is that you?
Of course.
Inhale and exhale
fade in, fade out
Don't you go thinking I didn't try
But trying is fucked
next time I won't try
I will be.

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Nate Howard Photographs Kosovo for Traveller Magazine

Nate Howard Photographs Kosovo for Traveller Magazine

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Nate Howard in CR Magazine

Nate Howard photographs an assignment featuring Heidi Nelson, a surgeon and academic researcher at Mayo Clinic.
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NATE HOWARD
Nate Howard has traveled the world as a photojournalist. The photographs he sent to us were from, Russia, Mexico, Iraq, and Kosovo. Photography taken all around the world does not always have a lot of similarities, but what we were most impressed by was Mr. Howard’s ability to capture quiet human moments that made us feel like we knew the people photographed.
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Nate Howard Featured at Every Writers Resource

Nate Howard has traveled the world as a photojournalist. The photographs he sent to us were from, Russia, Mexico, Iraq, and Kosovo. Photography taken all around the world does not always have a lot of similarities, but what we were most impressed by was Mr. Howard’s ability to capture quiet human moments that made us feel like we knew the people photographed.
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Rain

When I leave
I leave a garden
the kind that comes back
as soon as wild onions
as sure as the rain falls on ice
and wild roses in the ditches
can't be burned to death
raked, seeded or sowed
that's me in the garden
the worm in the carrot
underground
the flower before the tomato
until I drop and rot
before I leave
I'll give my seeds to your garden
no such thing as a weed
pull what you like
with confidence
water if you wish
but trust the rain
rake me under
where there is me no more
and I am the radish
the wild rose
with a spoonful of peanut butter
seated before the children's choir.